Log in

entries friends calendar profile Previous Previous Next Next
Sunrise, Sunset - Rad Angela
Sunrise, Sunset
Tonight I went to dinner with the boyfriend. We've been dating since about November of last year, but the last few months have been tense. We argued- and by we argued I mean I got frustrated about stuff and he apologized- about little stuff, like me feeling that he didn't really show an interest in my life. He's 21 and just finishing his BA, and I'm 27 and just finished my MA and we were just at really different places. I felt bad that I couldn't stop myself from saying stuff when he upset me and I feel bad that I made him feel like a shitty boyfriend. Anyway, tonight I said to him again to please be honest and tell me what he wanted and he said he thought that he couldn't be in a relationship right now. I know he's right but it's just kind of sad. Anyway, we agreed to be friends and we'll see if that happens.

I am feeling better about my PhD prospects. I really want to go to UCSB even if it's not the biggest, baddest history department ever. It's got some great strengths for me-- a professor who does consumer culture and family and another one who is interested in the intersection of the Cold War and pop culture. And they have a public history program. Also the university hosts an Institute for Cold War studies. And it's Santa Barbara. Since I'm getting serious about it, I pulled out my GRE score from last summer to see where I'm at. I need to take it again and try to bring up my writing score. I keep all my test scores in this binder with college applications. It was kind of funny looking back on the letters from when I was applying to college my senior year of high school. I was waitlisted at Pepperdine. I wonder where I would have wound up if I'd gone there.

Anyway, now I'm kind of emotionally exhausted so I think I'm going to get ready for bed.
4 comments or Leave a comment
miocaro From: miocaro Date: August 28th, 2008 01:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, I'm sorry.

I know just what you mean about being emotionally exhausted.
sugarangela From: sugarangela Date: August 28th, 2008 01:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you-- it was just so sad because I wasn't mad at him and he really is a good guy and I could tell he felt so bad for the ways he'd been distant over the last few months. I hope that this way he can find himself and we can come back around to being friends.
miocaro From: miocaro Date: August 28th, 2008 02:21 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think it's kind of more sad in these situations because you don't have the anger outlet for your emotions! Take some time and the free space and hopefully the friendship will come.
From: ponchfromchips Date: August 30th, 2008 05:14 am (UTC) (Link)
Hey lady, I'm sorry, I hope things work out between you guys. I got your card its super cute I was so so stressed when I got it and it cheered me up:)
4 comments or Leave a comment